Know yourself

The time left here is not so long.

I have studied English here for a long time, at the same time I have seen myself as an individual as well.

It is memorable to remember the days when I almost died of my weakness and laziness.

I didn't know what to do here, what I can do in this circumstanse, and what I should do after going back to my country.

Actually I still get confused unclearness of my future such as a mud that cannot be taken away.

I blamed this fear for the immidiate surrounding.
I blamed this boring life for my weakness.

I'm sure I wanted to share this pain with someone.

I just wanted to underatand me as I am.

I was such a fool man.

It was meaningless that I asked someone to understand what happened to me in life.

He said, "It is gonna help you to talk about your past here."

I know that.

Even though it is only the thing happened in the past, I believed just to share my story with him is effective to melt my freezing mind,



I have seen myself here, using as much as time.


Something has become clear little by little.

Many thing are still in the darkness.

However, I don't want to give up these three weeks left here.

I don't want this precious days to end in painful memory.

I believe in myself by the time I leave here.

I'm going to allow any changes to enter in my heart, and see them carfully.

Knowing what I want to do in future is my homework given in this country.

It may only a starting point, but it is an important first step to my true future.






I just wanted to change the way of writing way like English poem:)

I hope you understand even roughly what is written.

ummm... it's so tough to make good sentences in English!

Thank you for reading my post to the end!!