Messy Days.
Jun 27th 2010 23:11
Very long time no see ya everybody..
^_^
I was lazy to write in my diaries.
Hahahha.
My computer was broken and I gave a hard disk to my friend.
Before I gave it to him I forgot delete the file,so he read all of my Chinese diaries
>.<
Anyways that hard disk just writed in some secret of mine.
Now i can share with him..
But it does not mean i forgive what he done to me..
So this is the reason why I have to write some English diaries here.
I bet that he never will find this website and read it.
This month,my mood is very messy..
Yeah.
First,I lost my job.
I've work here for 4 years.
And I've left here this month.
I feel sad for it.
So sad.
But it is ok,I must to leave.
Mama said,i have to change my life.
My job is so stupid,the only way to change is leave here and start over!!
But she can not get a good job for me.
She just take me go a school and listen some lesson for learn how to be a real Chinese person.
Everything is very new to me.
She want me learn form "Confucius",The first teacher in China.
Yeah,that is Confucianism.
I've stay there about 4 days.
And nothing has change.
I am still a smoker,get drunk at light night and lost.
Sometimes I want to cry,but I don't feel sad until cry.
I don't cry for my life.
Coz i am still single now.
There is no one breaking my heart and make me cry.
But the worse thing happened so soon.
That guy show up.
Yeah,the guy who will break my heart I believe.
At first,
We are just very good friends.
He called me "Younger Sister",
And I called him"Older Brother".
Until now we call that each other.
The funny thing is I am older than him 3 years.
He said,I am the only one younger sister in his life ever.
He want to make me special to him.
Next, he kissed my face ,as a good younger sister.
But i got a strong feeling with that kiss.
Maybe just because I was too lone?
3 years I am living alone and sometimes got a bird in street take her home.
And I have so many good brothers like him,get kiss,but never have the strong feeling.
I hopefully I am not in love,
But I am.Because of this kiss,I believe that I fall for him.
After that he kissed me,I told him my truth feelings.
Tell him I was stupid.But maybe it is "like"
I told that I like him.
He told me he has the same feeling too.
"Feeling Like"
Like me a good sister.
Hey,it is a good news to me,right?
I have my style to enjoy my life.
I never will give up a person who I crush on .
Guess I'd rather hurt,than feel nothing at all.
^_^
I was lazy to write in my diaries.
Hahahha.
My computer was broken and I gave a hard disk to my friend.
Before I gave it to him I forgot delete the file,so he read all of my Chinese diaries
>.<
Anyways that hard disk just writed in some secret of mine.
Now i can share with him..
But it does not mean i forgive what he done to me..
So this is the reason why I have to write some English diaries here.
I bet that he never will find this website and read it.
This month,my mood is very messy..
Yeah.
First,I lost my job.
I've work here for 4 years.
And I've left here this month.
I feel sad for it.
So sad.
But it is ok,I must to leave.
Mama said,i have to change my life.
My job is so stupid,the only way to change is leave here and start over!!
But she can not get a good job for me.
She just take me go a school and listen some lesson for learn how to be a real Chinese person.
Everything is very new to me.
She want me learn form "Confucius",The first teacher in China.
Yeah,that is Confucianism.
I've stay there about 4 days.
And nothing has change.
I am still a smoker,get drunk at light night and lost.
Sometimes I want to cry,but I don't feel sad until cry.
I don't cry for my life.
Coz i am still single now.
There is no one breaking my heart and make me cry.
But the worse thing happened so soon.
That guy show up.
Yeah,the guy who will break my heart I believe.
At first,
We are just very good friends.
He called me "Younger Sister",
And I called him"Older Brother".
Until now we call that each other.
The funny thing is I am older than him 3 years.
He said,I am the only one younger sister in his life ever.
He want to make me special to him.
Next, he kissed my face ,as a good younger sister.
But i got a strong feeling with that kiss.
Maybe just because I was too lone?
3 years I am living alone and sometimes got a bird in street take her home.
And I have so many good brothers like him,get kiss,but never have the strong feeling.
I hopefully I am not in love,
But I am.Because of this kiss,I believe that I fall for him.
After that he kissed me,I told him my truth feelings.
Tell him I was stupid.But maybe it is "like"
I told that I like him.
He told me he has the same feeling too.
"Feeling Like"
Like me a good sister.
Hey,it is a good news to me,right?
I have my style to enjoy my life.
I never will give up a person who I crush on .
Guess I'd rather hurt,than feel nothing at all.
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Thank you for the messages to my diary.
I married the woman who associated for five years in March this year.
The things that goodness and badness occurs every day.I am making an effort as every day becomes better.
Moreover, I look forward to the chance to be able to talk with you.
What are other friends doing?
May the happiness be with you.
I was too lazy to write in my diaries.
My computer was broken, and I gave my hard disk to my friend.
Before I gave it to him I forgot delete the personal files, so he read all of my Chinese diaries
(That hard disk was where I wrote some of my secrets.)
I can still share with him,
but it does not mean I forgive what he has done to me.
So this is the reason why I have to write some English diaries here.
This month, my mood is very messy.
First, I lost my job.
I'd worked there for 4 years,
but I left this month.
I feel sad about it.
But it's ok, I must move on.
Mama said I have to change my life.
My job is so stupid, the only way to change is to leave it and start over!
But she cannot get a good job for me.
She just took me to a school for some lessons on how to be a real Chinese person.
She wants me learn from "Confucius", the most famous teacher in China.
Yeah, that's Confucianism.
I've stayed in school for about 4 days,
and nothing has changed.
I am still a smoker and get drunk and lost at night.
Sometimes I want to cry, but I don't really feel sad until I do.
I don't cry about my life,
'cause I'm still single.
There is no one breaking my heart and making me cry.
But the worse thing just happened.
This guy showed up.
Yeah, I think he's the guy who will break my heart.
we were just very good friends.
and I called him"Older Brother".
Until now we called each other these things.
The funny thing is I am three years older than him.
He said I am the only younger sister in his life ever.
He wanted to make me special to him.
Thenhe kissed my face, as a good younger sister.
But I got very emotional about that kiss.
Maybe just because I was too lonely?
3 years I am living alone, and sometimes [I have no idea what the rest of this sentence was supposed to mean].
And I have so many good brothers like him, and I get kisses from them sometimes, but I've never felt this strongly about one.
I hope I'm not in love,
But I think I am.
Because of this kiss, I believe that I am falling for him.
After he kissed me, I told him my true feelings.
I told him I was stupid,
but maybe I just "like" him.
I said that I do like him.
He likes me,
like me a good sister.
Hey, this should be good news to me, right?
I have freedom to enjoy my life.
I will never forget someone I have a crush on .
I guess I'd rather be hurt than feel nothing at all.