Tsunami by earthquake and so on.

From now on I am going to be absent from work about 3 months.
Because Mental doctor said I am "panic disorder"
and my counselor recommend that I should take a break at least one month.
"panic disorder" : when I have some stress, I feel dizzy, my hands and legs were numb, and I felt difficult blessing and so on.

After the earthquake, I think I could overcome the stresses and strains of a job for a while.
But I had been suffering from some illness until the end of September.
For example, a cold, Mycoplasma, leukocytes is comparatively many, having difficulty breathing, feel dizzy etc.
And then by using a antibaiotic medicine, I was getting better.
After that I went to work, I suddendly got sick (Hyper Ventilation Syndrome)twice(october 3rd and November 14th).
My hands and legs were numb, and I felt difficult blessing.
At that time, the doctor said I might have strong stress.
You should relax.
And if you want to stop working for a short while,you had better do it.
Thinking about what I have done after the Tsunami by the earthquake,
I had done hard working for me until now.
We lost alomost everything in my room by tsunami in Ishinomaki-city,Miyagi-Pref.
So our family had to go to Tokyo with having nothing.
In Tokyo I'd to go to Hokkaido on business on weekday(alomost every Monday to Friday) and collect every stuff to live on weekends(or play with kids to get rid of their stress).
When we are ready to live there, I was transfered(decided to move) to Sendai-city (Miyagi Pref.)branch office in August.
I went to Sendai-city with my family, because my wife was pregnant and will have a third baby on the end of Octorber(Sendai-city is my wife's hometown).
After living Sendai, I also did work hard weekday to forget the earthquake's hardship and I somotimes took care of our 2 children, because my wife couldn't move easily.
And my third child was born in Octorber 20th.
After that I become busy absolutely.
That's why I was terribly tired.

I have no words to express my gratitude to everyone's kindness and words of encouragement.
I think that to express we are fine, is our answer to them.
But I am sorry I need to take a rest now.

At first I will go back to my hometown(Wakayama Prefecture)by myself tomorrow.
And then I stayed several days and to go to meet my friends and go back to 22th.
I think I can relax there, and maybe take photographs.
For the time being, I can be absent from work end of Februaly.
Now I don't have idea after December 22th.
Maybe I will go skiing with my son for his winter vacation.