Feel a little tired...

Today is not a busy day, and I got a lot of time to surf the internet, because I want to find a part time job from the internet, however, it is not very easy for me. The parents always want to employ the local people, or a teacher from school. But there is a long time since I have given up teaching. I just a little afraid that I cannot teach well. It seems that I lost my confidence again. And my friends ask me to do something else, but I don't know what to do. I am tired now, I want to live better, I want to do something well, but I always cannot keep on doing.
Shanghai is a big city, well, I am some kind of lost my way, I don't know what I am good at, especially when I try to write my resume in the internet, it suddenly like I don' know myself well. What a bad feeling! I can not let this feeling distory myself ,I should find something to do, it is urgent.
I have been in Shanghai for more than half a year, but I didn't learn much things. All I get here is loneless. I want to know a lot of people here, and I also miss my friends, but one one is on my side. When I want to call someone, and search the phone book, I just can not find a person who I can speak with.
I feel tired, I feel lonely, but I should be strong, because I have my dream, I should try to get away from these bad feelings, I can not be fragile, I can not let my friend down. I know that no matter what happens, they will always on my side. Because that is a friend always do. And I believe my friends, it just because of me, who don't want to disturb them.
This is me, Echo, in front of the truly life. I know I am very confused now, but I am trying to hang on here. I hope I can become better, and have a small place in Shanghai, and I won't give up so easy.
Wish me good luck!