Something wrong?
Sep 13th 2010 18:41
Today is also a busy day, but I don't feel well, because I can not sleep well these days. I keep waking up many times in the evening, and can not fall sleep after waking. I t makes creay, because I will feel very tired when I am busy with my work, I want to take a break, but my colleage ask me to do something important. I don't know why, I am easy to get angry. But I can't, I also can not talk about this with my friends, they will think I am creay.
I feel so tired, tired of working, tired of speak to myself, and tired of loneliness. I want to find someone who can understand me, and share my happiness and sorrow with me, but I don't know how, because I don't know much people in Shanghai, and my colleagues are not very nice. I feel lonely, I do everything all by myself, I like writing, I want to writing, but I don't want to make it as my last choice.
When I was at school, I used to be an outgoing girl , I like talking, especially with those who are funny. I have a lot of friends at that time, and I like to chat or E-mail to someone who are from other country, because I think I can learn from them. When I decide to come Shanghai, I want to do foreign trading, I want to know more foreigners, and I hope they can help me to improve my English, because I like English so much. But what I am doing now has nothing with English, and it is cotrast with my aim.
I don't know how to hang on here, but it also very difficult for me to change another job, because the high cost in Shnaghai. It is hard to survive here. If I quit this job, I should find an apartment to live, and make myself living. I am a little afraid of this kind of things, because I don't want to ask my partents for money, because it is hard for them. So, what should I do now, I don't want to live an unhappy life, but I have no choice.
I feel so tired, tired of working, tired of speak to myself, and tired of loneliness. I want to find someone who can understand me, and share my happiness and sorrow with me, but I don't know how, because I don't know much people in Shanghai, and my colleagues are not very nice. I feel lonely, I do everything all by myself, I like writing, I want to writing, but I don't want to make it as my last choice.
When I was at school, I used to be an outgoing girl , I like talking, especially with those who are funny. I have a lot of friends at that time, and I like to chat or E-mail to someone who are from other country, because I think I can learn from them. When I decide to come Shanghai, I want to do foreign trading, I want to know more foreigners, and I hope they can help me to improve my English, because I like English so much. But what I am doing now has nothing with English, and it is cotrast with my aim.
I don't know how to hang on here, but it also very difficult for me to change another job, because the high cost in Shnaghai. It is hard to survive here. If I quit this job, I should find an apartment to live, and make myself living. I am a little afraid of this kind of things, because I don't want to ask my partents for money, because it is hard for them. So, what should I do now, I don't want to live an unhappy life, but I have no choice.
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It makes me crazy, because I will feel very tired when I am busy with my work, I want to take a break, but my colleagues ask me to do something important.
But I can't, nor can I talk about this with my friends, they will think I am crazy.
I feel so tired, tired of working, tired of talking to myself, and tired of loneliness.
I want to find someone who can understand me, and share my happiness and sorrow with me, but I don't know how, because I don't know many people in Shanghai, and my colleagues are not very nice.
I feel lonely, I do everything all by myself. I like writing, I want to do more writing, but I don't want to make it as my last choice.
When I was at school, I used to be an outgoing girl: I liked talking, especially to people who were funny.
I had a lot of friends at that time, and I liked to chat or E-mail to people from other countries, because I think I can learn from them.
When I decided to come to Shanghai, I wanted to do foreign trading, I wanted to know more foreigners, and I hoped they can help me to improve my English, because I like English so much.
But what I am doing now has nothing to do with English, and it is in contrast with my aims.
I don't know how to hang on here, but it also very difficult for me to change another job, because the high cost of living in Shanghai.
If I quit this job, I'll need to find an apartment to live in, and make my own living somehow.
I am a little afraid of this kind of thing, because I don't want to ask my parents for money, because it is hard for them.
So, what should I do now? I don't want to live an unhappy life, but I have no choice.