...Such a Depressing Entry (reader discretion recommended) :]
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I'm in California, US, on a "family" trip at the moment.
This trip has been very helpful and even refreshing to me so far in that it's revealed the decisive and irreversible incompatibility among us.
Last night frustration and a sense of despair swept over me. I could only resort to sobbing to myself in my bed for a good one hour or so.
It surely had a bit of a cathartic effect on me, leaving me with an expected splitting headache and miserably swollen eyes.
About thirty minutes or so ago they burst into blaming me for incessantly being ill-tempered and screwing up their trip. I'm just not capable of doing anything about it. What are you supposed to do when you find your own family the most despicably obnoxious creature on this planet?
How can I stop feeling like destroying myself?
I wish I had two lives or more so I could experience killing myself and still have a second chance. Not that I'm desperately wanting to die or anything, but I envy a girl we had back in my high school, who created hydrogen sulfide in her bathroom and killed herself. My life could've been ended just like that too.
全部が馬鹿みたい。
I'm everybody's pain in the ass. Apparently I don't even have the right to feel whatever I want to feel.
*DISCLAIMER*
This is just another one of me being desperately emotional and stuff. Never take this seriously. Thank you.
Now ignore the content and help improve my English, please >_<;
This trip has been very helpful and even refreshing to me so far in that it's revealed the decisive and irreversible incompatibility among us.
Last night frustration and a sense of despair swept over me. I could only resort to sobbing to myself in my bed for a good one hour or so.
It surely had a bit of a cathartic effect on me, leaving me with an expected splitting headache and miserably swollen eyes.
About thirty minutes or so ago they burst into blaming me for incessantly being ill-tempered and screwing up their trip. I'm just not capable of doing anything about it. What are you supposed to do when you find your own family the most despicably obnoxious creature on this planet?
How can I stop feeling like destroying myself?
I wish I had two lives or more so I could experience killing myself and still have a second chance. Not that I'm desperately wanting to die or anything, but I envy a girl we had back in my high school, who created hydrogen sulfide in her bathroom and killed herself. My life could've been ended just like that too.
全部が馬鹿みたい。
I'm everybody's pain in the ass. Apparently I don't even have the right to feel whatever I want to feel.
*DISCLAIMER*
This is just another one of me being desperately emotional and stuff. Never take this seriously. Thank you.
Now ignore the content and help improve my English, please >_<;

...Such a Depressing Entry (reader discretion advised) :] (On TV shows, there is a standard warning that says "Viewer discretion advised". I've never read anything like that for a text :D but I guess I'd use the same phrase.)
I'm in California, US, on a "family" trip at the moment. (Good sentence)
This trip has been very helpful and even refreshing to me so far in that it has revealed the unmistakable/unequivocal and irreversible incompatibility between me and my family. ("it's" is also grammatical, but in this specific case I feel that "it's" would probably mean "it is". Yeah, don't know why I feel that way, sorry! :D. How was the incompatibility "decisive"? I've suggested some different words that are closer to what I think you meant to express. If there is incompatibility among your entire family, then your mother might also be incompatible with your grandmother, or your sister with your mother, etc. Since I think you only meant to say that you are incompatible with the other members of your family, I've changed it to mean that.)
Last night, frustration and (a sense of) despair swept over me. (Why water it down? Just go with a full-on wave of despair! :D)
I could only resort to sobbing to myself in my bed for a good one hour or so.
It surely had a bit of a cathartic effect on me, leaving me with an expected splitting headache and miserably swollen eyes. (Catharsis is a profound thing. I wouldn't try to express a little bit of catharsis. If you think catharsis is too strong a term, you could go for a lighter word, such as 'relief'.)
About thirty minutes or so ago they burst into blaming me for incessantly being ill-tempered and screwing up their trip. ("Burst into blaming" is some peculiar phrasing, but I'll allow it. Good sentence)
I'm just not capable of doing anything about it. (Good sentence)
What are you supposed to do when you find your own family the most despicable, obnoxious creatures on this planet? (Is the extent of their obnoxiousness despicable? If so, your version was correct. I've gone ahead and interpreted it this way, though. ^^)
How can I stop feeling like destroying myself? (Good sentence)
I wish I had two lives or more so I could experience killing myself and still have a second chance. (Good sentence)
Not that I'm desperately wanting to die or anything, but I envy a girl we had back in my high school, who created hydrogen sulfide in her bathroom and killed herself. (Good sentence)
My life could end just like that too. (You are describing a general truth, right? You are stating the possibility that your life ends in this way. If this interpretation is correct, then the present tense is required. In your version, it sounds as if there was a time where this was a possibility, but it's not anymore.)
I'm everybody's pain in the ass. (Good sentence)
Apparently I don't even have the right to feel whatever I want to feel. (Good sentence)
*DISCLAIMER* (Good sentence)
This is just another one of me being (or: this is just (a blog written during) one of those times where I feel) desperately emotional and stuff.
Never take this seriously. (Good sentence)
Thank you.(Good sentence)
Now ignore the content and help (me) improve my English, please >_<; (Good sentence)
I'm sorry to hear you're having such a rough time being around your family. I hope some of the surprises of the US have alleviated your sorrow. Perhaps my corrections can also offer you some diversion :) I've tried to be harsh, as always! ;)
It's hard to ignore something that reads as if you've poured all your frustrations into it. I don't think I have to worry for your physical safety. It sounds as if you have managed to preserve a sufficient shred of sanity :P. That being said, I hope I get a chance to hear you out about this incompatibility issue. Feel free to keep pouring!
Take care and keep in touch!
Jeroen