私はｉが私の友人を失ったと思います (i think i lost my friend T-T)

私は友人を持っていました 私わともだちがすきです。。。ある日私は彼女に対してひどく何かをしました、私は彼女に嘘をつきました　。。。さいきん　vivian わげんきよく”おはよう”とあいさつおしたこんりんざい、彼女が常にそうしたように　彼女は決して尋ねません　”ようすわどんなぐあいですか”I think that あいにくvivianわ私おあいしてくれているじゃない。。。私は彼女に私がすまなく思っていると言いました　でもあのひとにうったのわあれがさいごづ。
I feel うく、わたしわこのもんだいのかいけつおまだあきらめていないでも私わsadです。。。あきない
　
私は友人たちなしで住むことを望みません　さわいにもわたしのto have a friend like her.


[ok guys i know i made a lot of mistakes here and some of you might not even understand it ...but what i meant to say ,so you could correct better was :( i think i lost my friend...i had a friend and i loved that friend a lot but one day i did horrible thing to her ...i lied to her ...lately vivian doesnt greet me with the cheerful "good morning" of hers and she doesnt ask how everything is going like she always used to ...i think that unfortunatly vivian doesnt love me anymore...i told her i was sorry and that was the last time i saw her ...i havent given up on the solution for this problem but i feel sad ....im tired of it .
i dont want to live my life without friends ...i was blessed/lucky to have a friend like her.) well guys please correst this and try to explain to me what i did wrong im going to try my best and work hard so i can become better ]